It can't be...

It can’t be…that today I am turning 31 because I am pretty sure I just turned 30 yesterday.

It can’t be…that my baby girl is almost 2 ½ …because I am pretty sure they were just born yesterday.

It can’t be…that my precious angel boy has been gone for almost 2 years…because I am pretty sure I just held him in my arms yesterday.

It just can’t be…

Why is it as we get older the time really does go by faster? I am sure that when I was 12 the years didn’t go by this fast. What is going on?

I am so grateful to be one year older…don’t get me wrong, but I feel like time is pushing me through my life faster than I want to go. I want to experience new things and make new memories, but I don’t want to leave the one’s I cherish with all of my heart behind so quickly either. I am not just talking about Bennett (although he is a MAJOR reason I hate to see every day end…making it one day further from our last “date”). I HATE watching the time with Ellie slip away. I love, love, love being a mommy more than anything else in the entire world. I love spending every single day with Ellie and it scares me that the last 2 ½ years have gone by so fast. She has changed and grown so much. I just don’t want this phase to end…not that I’m not looking forward to the times we will have in the future. I am scared that this is my one chance to be a mom and these are the only times I will get to make these memories. It is terrifying to think that this is the only time you will change diapers, or make bottles, or potty train or teach someone to read. I want to do that a million more times…I just don’t want these times to end.

So, I reread my post from last year and I loved it! (I have to say so myself!)

I love the positive attitude I had going into this year. I love the thought that the last year was probably the worst and that it could only get better. I am going to keep it (the positive attitude that is) and keep the same hopes and prayers for this 31st year of life. I KNOW it holds greatness for me. My blessings have not “run out,” I know that He has carved out some wonderful journeys for my future. I am going to end this 30th year of life triumphantly…not just in survival mode!

So, cheers to the many blessings my 31st year WILL bring!

Blessings,
Angie